X…Marks The Spot!

Other girls

get diamond rings

furs

and so much more.

I recall the Old Bill

banging down our door.

Turkey, sprouts and gravy

pasted on the wall.

As your plate

flew pass my head

you stumbled

drunk

you’d fall.

Other girls have memories

of sweetest Xmas past.

All I have is wondering

how long your good will shall last.

New Year’s resolution

promises of change

so often heard.

Perhaps I should have common sense

or not believe a word.

Leaving is an option

but let’s face what is real.

I can’t remove you from

under my skin

No matter how I feel.

So merry Xmas baby

bring on all your rage

As this saga ends

I turn the final page. 

New dawn!

A creation
These many elements of self
Sometime vulnerable
At times alone.
Struggle to rise up 
Beyond self-pity
Other moments strong
Resilient, wise and fulfilled.
The atoms that make up the soul
My lady, she encompasses me
Her arms my comfort and my home
No-one wants to be alone!
Crisis, sitting at a crossroads
Embark on pastures green or gold
No longer making sense
The voices in my head
I wish I knew which one I own.
Devastated by this loss
I rise from tombstone
It felt so cold.
I’m stuck, tell me where to go
Wondering around in
Aimless haste.
Last breath, deep breath,
the breath I hold,
Death anxiety reborn
I don’t want to be alone!

Red Riding Hood's Dance.

Silent scream
lost control

Wondering
what went wrong?

Woke like death

There’s nothing left

I try in vain to sing this song.

Suddenly
I understood

Our romance
was not love

Just dependency.

Stare at me
with sweet distaste

Don’t feed me
fake sympathy.

Why was lust,
so desirable?

I could have chosen
more wisely

Leaving me
black and blue

but here is no way
you’ll ever
set me free.

So I’ll run
away from you

Fearful and desperate

With no place to hide.

Can’t remember
where to begin

Better beware
whom I let in.

The wolves
at my door

They know the score

Surrender to him

My deepest sin.

Tomorrow
 another chance

Russian roulette

To lose
to win!

Agelessness unknown

She daydreams
in multicolour
Delusions of a life she craved.
A past forgotten
Only fragments
of her memory remain.
She stops
to watch the children play.
In pantomime
being other than they are
masks and masquerade.
she stands frozen.
She understands
the meaninglessness of life
staring starkly at her from afar.
No-one told her
life was going to be this way.
She stands frozen.
Pondering another time
A different existence.
Once she had beauty
on her side.
Once she had felt alive,
yet
time has a cruel way
of creeping upon her
and stealing youth away.