Innocent Child

How long can she walk

In the shadow of her pain

Here comes the anger once again.

How loud does she really have to scream?

Will she be accused of creating another scene?

Secrets she keeps deep inside

How much hurt could that child hide

Could she trust you to believe her lies?

All you ever saw was pain

Behind that child's eyes

Where do you draw the line?

It hurts her

Who gave you the right?

To touch her

You watch her cry

Yet still hurt her

That innocent child

Not born to be wild

An innocent child

Disguise your love

So to you it makes sense

Then see if society thinks you are just

Try to explain to the mother of that child

What was the meaning of you lust

You are her reoccurring dream

A dream that most would call obscene

But you said that you loved her

So it was alright

Is she still in your nightmares?

You now have each night

INSANITY

You stand there with crying eyes and you cause another scene,

You told me that you love me but I know where you've been.

Why should I listen to all those hurtful things that you say?

If it were up to me, I would have you locked away.

You curse me and I'll curse you but it all remains the same,

At least I know that this time, I will not receive the blame.

I've flown before, I've reached the stars and I've seen angels weep.

I gave you love, you gave up hope, nothing cuts this deep.

If I close my eyes I recall my life spent by your side,

But now I only wish I had somewhere safe to hide.

You'll never change, you'll still remain, the man without a heart,

But I will grow inside myself even though we'll part.

I just didn't see

I found strength in my darkest nightmare

Fear left my shivering battered body

My inner pain had time to heal

Just don't ask me how I feel

I was afraid of been on my own

Loneliness was so very fighting

But after all these moments alone

I have realised I was already home

I am my saviour, my hero, my mother and my friendI am the one who'll get closest to myself

Within I have learnt to entrust me

I’m the one with the power to set my spirit free

After all these this time I spent soul searching

Trying to find inner peace and joy within others

All the time I was always there for me

But was so blinded by you, I just didn't see.

There must be more than only you

If loving you is all I have, then doomed I must be

I carve your name across my breast, for everyone to see

It's courage now that I seek, courage to set you free

I am damned, can't break away, you meant so much to me.

If yours is the only name I speak, then speak no more shall I

I'll cut out my very tongue and no longer shall I cry

It’s strength I need to say farewell, no to say goodbye

I don't think I could carry on, without you I shall die.

If yours is the only face I see in my nightmares late at night

I'll wrap these sheets around my neck and tie the knot real tight

It’s different dreams I need to fulfil my soul, if I want to win this fight

You wreak my life, you always will, although I know it can't be right

If you are the only one I want, then tell me what will I do

I will cut out my only heart, then send it home to you

The rainbows end is what I need to help me struggle through

If I can't be with you every day, may the sky turn black and blue.

Untitled, Unknown

Beaten and battered, battered and worn

The lining of my heart is well and truly torn

All the pain that you have caused

Just wish this love had never been born

Empty lonely, lonely sad

I have forgotten what it is that I miss

The way that you treat this love

I think you may be taking the piss

I'll never be the same again

I have lost you, you have won this game

My heart bleeds for you, well it can't bleed for me

These chains may bind me but my spirit still flies free

These months they turn into years

Your laughter once replaced my tears

Why could you just not behave?

What was it we tried so hard to save?

I'll carry it with me to my grave

Living without you, I’m not that brave.

Torn and broken

Torn broken, 

broken torn

The lining of my soul

completely worn

Just once
I allowed you 
to step inside. 

You wreck it, ruined it,
tore it up, and then

ripped me apart.

For how much longer 

shall I pretend?

Our journey 

has come to the end

How can I just set you free?

You are still 

a part of me.

I was always be

just second best

You put this love

to the test

This is why

I feel so abused

taken for granted  

NO, just f**king used.

Walk away

with only bruised pride

I'm no longer on your side

time to stop 

this ridiculous game

But, will i learn 

to love again?

Shall I scream

shall I shout

shall I let the anger

come pouring out

Was this ever worthwhile

As I  force

this bitter smile.

Powerless

What do you want from me?
Expecting indications
Games 
won’t play your games
I’ll offer no pity
to carry your shame
Who is going to take the blame?
I have nothing left
Disappointing disagreements
Shall I sit here 
and watch you mislead me?
With your tales, stories, lies,
Is this where our friendship dies?
I’m not cut out for this
Destructive disillusions
I've seen it all before, it’s lame,
Your new found wildness 
I refuse to tame
Look at me, can’t you 
see we’re not the same.
What does this really mean?
Everlasting fictional dream,
I’ll not be there
to hear you scream,
Nor shall I watch you 
create a scene,
So I ask
what does this actually mean?