Free Spirit!

I’m a free spirit!

Not controlled by society, or any construction thereof

Nor are my feelings instituted by negative emotions, this is just grief

I will swing to my own rhythm, dance to my own songs.

I will walk alone, but with no sadness, because I’m not empty.

I’m made up of many things beyond your reach,

I’m one.

I’m a soul, not a subject,

I will not be treated as such.

I should be allowed to speak before I get shouted down.

I’m not a child, although I do childlike things.

I’m not a dreamer, but I have my fair amount of dreams

I’m not ideal, yet I have my share of idealistic contributions.

I have thoughts, some that I express, and some I wish to withhold,

I will not give admit to narcissism, but I am a narcissist, to a degree.

Am I allowed to dwell in self, if I am my own creation?

You may direct me, but do not own me,

You cannot control my destiny, only I have such power.

I have the power to decide on my life

This is my life, I own this life, it’s all I have, 
I believe in me.

You don’t believe in me, yet I believe in you,

You may love me, but I need to love myself,

No-one is allowed to enter into these parts which are mine.

By doing so you create an enemy within

I’m not my own enemy, nor am I yours.

I don’t fight against my will, or against you

I chose to live my life,

You cannot end it for me.

By trying to be what you cannot be, are you are trying to control

There are no rules here, made up to suit myself.

I’m myself.

I’m not selfish.

You bring out my self-centredness by provoking what is not yours

If you fight against me, I will win, will you cheat?

You can't walk along the same road as me, it holds only my name,

I don't walk along yours.

I’m the only one who understands me, I see me, I feel me, I exist.

Watch, but don't come too close,

I will lie to you.

Don't interfere with me, I’m the only one who has self-knowledge

The one who understands me.

I don't ask anything of you

Leave me as you found me.

Give nothing,

Take nothing,

I’m only me.

MM ã      2010

Anger

How can I choose life?

If I can't grasp my destiny

I've seen mountains fall

But what does it mean to me

I arise, reborn, and cast off what's controlling me

Remove these chains, break the bond

Unleash my soul, and set my spirit free

Control, control, control, puppet masters

Fight for freedom, ask for reason

Read between the lines

Everything you say will be held against you

In a court of law?       

Who the hell are we voting for?

Can't we remember anymore?

He's aggression, her repression

Their corruption, my frustration

So who's angry now?

That poverty, this recession

Evolution into what

How far do we have to go?

Asking questions to the answers we don't know.

Hidden behind debouched religion

A frustrated preacher man

Power gave him a god complex

Masturbating inside the confession box

Do you sleep well at night preacher man?

On Sunday you speak of god's grace

But preacher man, can you look at god’s face?

Have mercy on my soul

I repent, wash away my sins

If there is this nightmare that they call hell

Let me embark on other pastures

For I’ve lived in hell

My birth so grim, but life won't wait

I'd need to hurry, before I’m late

 © MM 2010

Can't Stand It

Can't stand it, all this anger

Built up inside, brought on by you,

You left me, feeling so worthless

Empty, lonely, so god damn blue.

Did I allow this to control me?

Love to hate, got myself in such a state,

Do I have strength to continue?

Where’s my destiny, what’s my fate?

I have lost all self-esteem

I need an outlet for my pain,

No-one will ever heard me scream

You are driving me insane.

I’ll find what I was looking for, in time

This important thing right inside,

Deep inside, my destroyed soul

Someone has lost her pride.

I will arise, just like a phoenix

Standing tall, to reach those stars in your eyes,

I no longer need this love

That’s what you’ll learn, when love dies.