Differently!

If I had done it differently

Would that have set my sprit free?

Why can't they just let me be?

I just can't go on this way – you’ll see.

I will not hurt you any more

I don't want you to, you know the score

I can feel you in every pore

Tell me when I became a bore

I awake every single night

Still I’ll never get it right

Please won't you just hold me tight?

And can we please no longer fight.

Inside my head, so much pain

I can no longer take the strain

Will this broken heart remain?

I am going slightly insane!

If I had a reason to care

When were you ever really there?

Go ahead you may as well stare

It is more than I can actually bare.

All my life, I caused so much shame

Day and night I took the blame

I'm sick of playing this pointless game

I have blackened my only name.

Hate inside and why should that be

You were always so good to me

But it was me that didn't see

All I wanted was to be free.

I can't be what you ask

I can't complete my lifelong task

In this roll I have been cast

I am living in the past.